Jumpline magazine April 2024 - Flipbook - Page 11
Sherry Bullock
Mother of a Daughter Gone Too Early
vibe. Maybe that’s why she never really cared
for them that much. Cleaned-up and sanitized
spaces speak of resolution and closure and pretense. Of 昀椀nality. Of 昀椀ction.
Messes, on the other hand, speak of a life
being lived. Honestly. Clumsily. And they audaciously promise tomorrow.
Even if they don’t deliver it.
So I’m learning that this mess that we are in –
the one that she left behind in our hearts and in
our minds – will probably never be as organized
as I’d like. But that’s ok. It has to be ok. We
don’t have a choice. But it points to the life that
was lived. The beautiful, stubborn, “I-promiseI’ll-see-you-again life” that she lived.
And there is a glimpse of peace in the mess...
of promise in the mess...of progress and possibility in the mess. I can meet her there, too.
When I allow myself to really remember her.
When I spray the perfume or open the closet
or re-play the videos or imagine her in heaven.
She’s there, still. Living and loving.
While we wait.
In the mess she left behind.
~Sherry Bullock 6/29/22
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